Readings
Reflection:
Watt (2007)
I
have read the Watt article 3 times now (Intro to Qual, Advanced Qual, and now,
Digital Tools). Each time I read it I
take away something new. This time, I
read the article electronically (working on that ‘paperless’ thing) on my Ipad
and used Iannotate to highlight some things as I read. This reading, I was struck by how her use of
a reflexive journal really drove her research process. Yes, it offered her the opportunity to
outline her struggles and mistakes along the way, making her more open and
trustworthy to her readers, but she also became aware of aspects of the
research through writing. This awareness
influenced her choices along the way. On
page 89/90 (p.9 electronically), Watt reflects on a conversation she had with a
participant about the possibility of observing her as she home schooled her
children. Through the reflection, Watt
decides NOT to do observations, something she had originally planned to do as
part of her research study. Watt also
talked about her struggles with data analysis and her lack of connection with writing
and using her journal during this time.
She reverted to reading, when using her journal and writing might have
helped her through the difficult time with data analysis. This is particularly important to keep in
mind – not just to read, but to write (and you reminded us of this several
times in qual class last semester).
Wednesday
night in our DP class, we talked a great deal about objectivity/subjectivity
and how it is impossible to be completely objective in our research
observations. We bring our experiences
with us into the research area. Watt
quotes Reason (as cited in Maxwell, 1996) when she discusses “critical
subjectivity” – “a quality of awareness in which we do not suppress our primary
experience; nor do we allow ourselves to be swept away and overwhelmed by it;
rather we raise it to consciousness and use it as part of the inquiry process.
(p. 12). Keeping a research notebook
would be really helpful in this regard, allowing a space to check in on how
prior experiences, beliefs, expectations etc. are influencing the
researcher. This popped up for me some
last semester when I was working with a professor at a local elementary
school. I have a background in literacy
coaching, having been an intermediate (grades 3-5) coach for several years, as
well as a district trainer. One aspect
my training stressed was not allowing teachers to be dependent upon the coach,
with the ultimate goal being that teachers would take on new practices or
refine practices with support. I could
model lessons and demonstrate particular practices, but the eventually “doing”
of the teaching needed to be carried out by the teacher I was working
with. It was my job to scaffold the
opportunity to allow her/him to be independent in carrying out the action. While I was at the research site, it bothered
me that the teachers were not taking ownership and “doing”. I saw the professor jumping through hoops to
accommodate people (like doing a lesson with 30 minutes’ notice). I had definite opinions and expectations
about “how this should go” that were impacting my perceptions of the research
participants. I felt like some of the
teachers were taking advantage of the professor, not taking on the learning,
and using her precious time to simply give them a break from working with students. The professor and I discussed it some, and I
wrote about it in my memos in Atlas. Through
journaling, I really thought through this, and decided that maybe this was part
of relationship building for the prof and the teachers. Unlike a literacy coach who is in the
building all the time and has many, many opportunities to establish
relationships, the prof was at the school for only a day a week. She also did not have district mandates to
support any particular kind of implementation (like the coaches in my district
did). It took me some time, reflecting,
and conversing to come to this conclusion about the project. Through reflection of this sort I was able to
reframe what I was witnessing and consider other factors.
PDL
– Chapter 2
I like
the definition of reflexivity that is offered at the beginning of this chapter
– “Reflexivity is the process of intentionally attending to the perspectives,
attitudes, and beliefs that shape how you design a research study and make
sense of your data.” In my Watt
reflection above, I discussed how my past experiences as a literacy coach were
influencing my attitude about some of the teachers we were interacting with and
how using my research journal helped me reframe the interactions to make sense
in a new setting.
Reflexive
Practice 2.1 asks, “How might your previous experiences influence how you enter
the context of the study you are proposing?”
In both of the research studies I talked about in my initial DT post, I
would bring a great deal of experience and expectation. I have certain notions about what is
important in professional development with teachers (that they be active, that
they work to bring together theory and practice, that they reflect on their
actions, that they take responsibility for their own learning) and what is important in working with low
achieving readers (that they be active in their learning, that they experience
success, that they experience genuine accomplishment – solving problems in
reading, that they do as much as possible independently). If I were to do research around either one of
those topics, I would have to think about how those expectations were
influencing what I was seeing, what I was focusing on, and what conclusions I
was drawing. Keeping a journal and
talking with others would help me be aware of how my thoughts and expectations
were influencing me as a researcher.
I think
when I am actually working on my dissertation, it will be important for me to
have consistent feedback from others. I
think setting up a private blog with a mentor and some colleagues would be
helpful. I liked the idea of video
blogging too. I had never really
considered that as an option until this chapter, but see how it might be
useful. I write differently than I
speak, and so perhaps video blogging would get to different kinds of thoughts
and feelings that writing wouldn’t.
This chapter also talked about using audio recording as part of the
process. I began to consider this last
semester, when Dr. Allington talked about how he has to work out (orally) the
beginning of a paper or book before he can really get going. He uses an audio recorder to help get the
right feel to the opening of a piece.
Next year, I will be working with a group of teachers in Atlanta. The weekly car ride to and from ATL would be
a good time for me to practice this.
Lastly,
I agree with Markham’s (2006) thoughts on what a researcher should be whether
working online or offline – “prepared, reflexive, flexible, adaptive, and
honest”. The goals are to do no harm to
the participants and the community.
Working online requires different considerations than working offline,
but the goals are ultimately the same.
Class
reflections (7.11.12):
I enjoy
talking with different classmates each week about the readings. Tonight, David and Rachel and I were in a
group, and we had some interesting conversations. David talked about his
experience in research and how most of it had been quantitative. He had a hard time relating to the Watt
article, and we wondered together if the fact that he was doing mostly quantitative
research was impacting that. It reminded
me of what you said in DP Wednesday – that people engaged in quantitative data
projects often don’t have to think through or justify epistemological concerns because
it is the “given”…it is just how it is done and the rest of us (who deviate
from the norm) need to do the explaining.
I left
class last night feeling pretty overwhelmed by all the tools that are out there
and overwhelmed by what I might choose to work on. There is so much out there to explore
technologically, but learning these new tools is very time consuming (for me)
and some of that cognitive energy to learn the tools is taken up in content
courses. This class feels like a luxury
in that it is making me take the time to learn the tools as part of the class,
so I can be more efficient in my content work. I was very tempted by Evernote – I’ve kept
journals for years and am obsessed with the Moleskine line – I have journals
and calendars and all things Moleskine.
I can see myself really using something like that because it does have “notebooks”
and you can pull in all kinds of different kinds of media. I think I can handle that one on my own
though, so I don’t think I will choose it for my skill builder. I need to do a better job of handling all my
citations, so I will definitely go with Mendeley. I was thinking last night that I could use
the Iannotate (because I need to practice going paperless etc.) app to take
notes on articles in my field, and I could begin to collect articles in Atlas
ti to begin a lit review on professional development with teachers. I could do a few articles this semester as
part of my skill builder, then continue next semester. These are just my thoughts right now, and are
subject to change … I will get started with Mendeley and continue to consider
the second skill builder.
I
thought The Old Reader was pretty cool.
Last semester I didn’t comment on others blogs, though I did read them
from time to time. This summer, I am
going to make more of an effort to comment about what others are saying, and I
think The Old Reader will help me do that efficiently. Also, in the reading course that I teach for
undergraduates, I have them write reading responses that I respond to. We have always done this through Blackboard,
but now I am wondering if I might have them do blog posts and comment on one
another’s blogs.
"Yes, it offered her the opportunity to outline her struggles and mistakes along the way, making her more open and trustworthy to her readers, but she also became aware of aspects of the research through writing." Yes! If we don't make it transparent to ourselves first, we can't make it transparent to others.
ReplyDeleteThis quote from your post made me think about how HARD it is to stay in a learning stance and not an evaluation stance while at a site: " I had definite opinions and expectations about “how this should go” that were impacting my perceptions of the research participants. I felt like some of the teachers were taking advantage of the professor, not taking on the learning, and using her precious time to simply give them a break from working with students. The professor and I discussed it some, and I wrote about it in my memos in Atlas. Through journaling, I really thought through this, and decided that maybe this was part of relationship building for the prof and the teachers."
I hear from a lot of students that long car commutes are the perfect opportunity to use audio recordings and/or listen to their articles rather than read them. Figuring out ways to use that time productively may be really helpful.
Your skill building ideas sound good!